Choice

Ever since David was offered a job in Korea, we have been doing the game of back and forth in deciding whether to take the job and make that move to Korea. We've said yes, then we've said no, then yes again, and yes, this time we ARE really coming don't worry.

I was, for the most part, thrilled about the prospect of going to Korea. I couldn't wait for the exciting city life opposite of the mundaneness that surrounds me here in Haifa. I will at last be in an environment not so foreign and alienating. I will be going home.

On the other hand, life won't be as exciting and easy for David. It will be difficult for him to find the same camaraderie he has here. Then there is the kosher food issue. He'll have to live eating only fish and vegetables. Given that there are people who eat only fish and vegetables by choice, it's not the end of the world. However, this will be from the lack of choice for David. I'll be plucking out a man happily indulging himself in meat eating and move him to a land where he can't do. I'm worried because my husband is so thin as it is. But the most important issue will be that He won't find the Jewish community in Korea that he'll be able to relate to. It will be like for him how it is for me here. I don't wish this kind of loneliness on anyone, god forbid.

I had been extremely unhappy in Israel until Liam came to my life. I was unmotivated to get on because I was dying to leave. Things have changed somewhat. I began working and I am satisfied with the kind of work I'm receiving. That helps a lot. Then my baby Liamie. I want stability for him. I can see that he'll be happy here with David's family and with the friends we have made.

Can you see that I'm confused? What to do??